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"Let us not be weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." -Galatians 6:9 I am feeling so warm and fuzzy after watching Jayesslee's video. They are really a pair of perfect twins. Stunningly beautiful, elegant, sweet, kind, happy, inspirational.
Especially warm cuz Sonia's engaged after 5 years. Omg I'm so happy for them!! They are so cute together!!! Stay happy forever!!!
Please have an album/single out in stores in Singapore because I don't think my brother will allow me to purchase from Itunes. :'(
Yay Jayesslee!!!!!!!!!!! :)
Fuck
It's like everything's against me/us.The stress is overwhelming.
Lousy studies, money problems with regards to Europe trip, lousy un-recovered voice, lousier and disappointing results, ogl camp- how not to lose my voice? studies how? GP paper tmr how? Everyday coming home late and feeling so drained, less sleep to wake up early to do hw, fast food everyday- unhealthy, but can't afford to fall sick, ulcers forming, throat problems again, no motivation to study, can't pay attention in class/lect, can't sing well, demoralized. Too lazy to run... Alpha work undone, tuition work undone. Hated, got annoyed. Unhappy with myself. A levels schedule is out. How prepared am I?
Fuck this shit.
Ms ong said if we really want it, we just have to keep pushing ourselves. But that's really not easy. :(
I think we should have a mass crying session. At least there's some instant comfort and stress-relief in crying.
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the only romance in my life comes from movies #foreveralone
Recently I've watched three movies.
The Billionaire is a Thai show. Kinda draggy but quite inspiring cuz it's a true story of the young boss of the seaweed company, who's only 26yo this year! But thought this show would be better cuz this guy acted in SuckSeed!!! (which I liked moreeeeeeee)
We Not Naughty is a local film, I think I'm among the last to catch it but at least I did!!!! :) Wasn't super fantastic, but there was this part which was really sad/touching, but climax wasn't so good I thinkk. The guy (Shawn/Sean/Shaun) is quite cute too. :)
I personally think this is the best amongst the three shows!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SERIOUSLY PYY IS SO CUTE!!!! And all the guys (except the old one, who's the director) are so hot/charming/cute/manly Omggggggggg!!!!!!!! HOW TO TANK!
K but besides that, I really loved the stories in the movie although they're a little cheeesy...
But they are all so sweet. Omggggggg I must go watch it again!
What to do when I want to talk to you
I've been too busy to update this portion of my life I'm sorry for neglecting you. :( So this week had been fun but school is still sian.
Tues was valentine's day! Everyone brought chocolates and stuff to share but sadly I had two fatass ulcers soni couldn't eat a lot. It was quite fun, and I liked it ^^
At night I met boon Ben Aloy ash Weijie at simpang for dinner and then celebrated Aloy's bday when v and Wl came. I reached home at 4.15 and to my horror I had no keys with me and everyone was asleep...
Thankfully my dad woke up at 5 so I was only stucked outside for an hour.
So I didn't go to school on wed which was also the Total Defence day. Many of them said it was fun. Oh well but I had no regrets cuz I only woke up at 3 lol.
Met Marilyn for the last time before she flies for a last swim. I'll miss her so much. :(
Thursday school ended at 4. Was supposed to watch We Not Naughty but there was no timing that I could watch cuz I had GP tuition later that night. So I haven't watched it yet. :( DEREK LA!!!!! SIGH.
GP tuition was so good, both Sharm and I agreed it was equivalent to one month of PCC's lessons lol. I really have a lot of respect for mrs woo. (then again there's homework sigh)
Friday I forgot to bring my present for my mortal and sadly I was the only one who hasn't given... So sorry Trecia :(
Then I went for the Uni talk which left me as clueless as before as to what I want to do in life.
Then I had choir which I finally met the j1s who are not too bad. Only the first session and we were discussing about the cute boys in school. Hehe lol
After choir I met Lx and Wl for dinner and v joined us for a movie. The Billionaire was boring but inspiring. It was a true story of the seaweed guy lol. In my opinion, they should cast the cuter guy from SuckSeed though.
But the best part of the movie was when Lixuan the bitch said, "excuse me can y'all talk softer" to the couple behind me and Wl who kept talking like they're at home. I seriously hate people who keep talking when they're watch movies in the cinema... Annoying man, watch at home la.
So Lx is the hero haha cuz Wl and I could only "shh" and gave them disturbing looks but they could only keep quiet for 5 seconds each time.
Feels good to be meeting up with the sec school people after so long!!! (the last time was before cny :o) hehe I missed them and I always get courage and more balls with Lx and v lol.
Hmmm besides that... School's the same just that my results are... Lol unspeakable. Mrs Lian said I was smart but I cannot imagine the look on her face when she sees my econs paper I'm sorry. I only got back physics and it's a U sigh. Sorry mr kuah. The other tutors are all useless already lol.
I hope I don't get removed for j1 camp leh... Don't do this to me please :(
Then... Everyday in school I hear people telling me how handsome and charming and awesome they are. Haha seriously cannot tahan them!!!
And I've confirmed that I'm going or the Olomouc trip so I have to save up now for my own expenses. Sighhh!
K bye bye. If only I were richer...
Orientation
I really feel so blessed.I have the BEST OGMs I swear. :') So proud of them and I love them all so much!!!!
Please do not let these friendships break please... :(
My 1500th post
Tmr-no, today, is Cel's birthday. REALLY hope she'll like whatever we're doing tmr cuz it's her 18th, if it's not going to be a blast, at least it must be freaking ass fun and memorable cuz we love her so much. Omg but it's really hard cuz everyone's so busyyyy and plans KEPT failing so much that all of us kinda gave up at different times I think. And what we looked forward most, the USS plan failed......... Fuck!
My studies are really going down the drain. Learning nothing about chem and math and gp. Damn jialat, besides OGL and choir I really don't know why I'm going to school. Lessons are so dry and boring. It's ok if they're only dry and boring, I don't feel like I'm learning...
Wa it's only January and I really don't know how I'm going to carry on... cuz it's already hard and I'm already losing my focus in school. But I really can't wait for orientation!
Today I was with my OGL cluster the whole day and I really really like those people a lot. :) Awesome fun people. I was soooooooooo proud of our dance and I am soooooo proud of my cluster. But it's quite sad today's the last Saturday before orientation, so prolly after orientation we won't get to meet already until March camp. But I really love the spirit so much, I really don't have enough vocabulary to describe it.
Being an OGL has changed me.
It is absolutely amusing and stunning. From how much I hated TPJC to now, not that I love it with all my heart kind of thing, but now I have a strong feeling about it. I actually will want to protect/defend TPJC when people say negative stuff about it. But then again I'll get sad because ultimately I can't change people's perceptions and all these negative voices are strong... even in our campus ourselves. Since the beginning...
When I first joined the OGLs, I was really sceptical of what the OIC said. He said something like, when people are asked about the TPJC spirit, there's no answer. But we are going to change that.
It sounded like Mission Impossible, really. Cause too many of us hated our school... Almost impossible to change it but look what's happened.
Probably because now I'm part of this huge project, and I really want to prove my worth. And I really wish that all our efforts will be paid.
The only thing that has changed is the attitude. And attitude is really so powerful. Lousy teachers will still be lousy and useless. But now I am proud of my school.
But this change has caused me some discomfort with friends. (I don't know how I can be so utterly honest on my blog, then again it's my blog.) I really hate it when they get J2s to do mass dances/cheers because it is always so hard and awkward to get my friends to do something that they think is lame. I tried to ask them to do, but then Derek just shot back with a question "Would you do it if you were not an OGL?" and then I stopped asking him to do cheers lol.
Because we all knew the answer to that and that's no.
So torn apart. The looks on the faces of my friends are always the hardest to ignore.
Then again I get really awkward again when my friends start to comment on how lousy the school is, or how the OGLs are trying too hard, or how failed the open house was and other depressing stuff like that... Cuz prevly I'd have agreed with them, but now. I just keep quiet cuz idk what to say.
I'm just hoping my friends will not dislike me for this. But I believe... it will have an impact in some ways.
Then along the way came this awesome cluster called Jernite whom I became close with and had a lot of fun with. Suddenly school seemed more fun altogether.
So this had been my OGL journey and orientation is just about to start and I'm really excited, I'm hoping for enthusiastic OGMs!!! :)